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fuck, damnit, i was so hyped from paul van dyk... and yet, in the end, it fucking sucked, i mean paulie was gd, he was fantastic! bloody hell.. this really sucks.. hate it when things dun go well for the night tt u really wanted to enjoy urself.. went to kel's hse, it was alright, not bad, might even be fun, i won abit of cash, ha, had to leave early.. left a tad too late, knns... had to pull in a favour from someone tt i absolutely didn't want to owe... tmd... fucking ten bucks, ok.. cb, even if it's a fucking lib fine, i got to return it. it's against my principles. at least i was nice. fuck, where the hell did all my cash go? i didn't even drink much, must be the damn cab fares.. cant remember how many cabs i took...
i hate fucking guys who try to be funny, i said it once before and i'm saying it again.. cb, this time it was worst, kns, involve my fucking friend, it was so fucking obvious...
bah...
i wasn't in a very gd mood cos of 3 things, kns, thus leaving zouk early, i was in there for like less than an hr!!! argh, i had been looking forward to paul van dyk, for at least two wks. first things, really fucked it up, when yuey cldn't make it, i was so disappointed. argh.. clubbing with him is usually fun, he clubs for fun and even when he's drunk he doesn't try to be funny and tt goes for the rest tt clubs with him...nothing really pisses me off when i'm clubbing with him, urghz, as for the rest, bah... all mother fuckers. somehow i dunnoe whether it's me or what... damn cbs... and i really dun like the fling word... kns... yeah, maybe it was a fling, but still, kns, i didn't treat it as one, but being ur gd friend now, it really sucked hearing it. cos i didn't fucking treat u like a fling, maybe i did... i guess i did.. but there was still feelings, bah.. or maybe i'm just making excuses. and i am very glad tt we are still close without all the physical nonsense... i guess it's diff, yeah, it is, infact. and i'm really happy with our relationship now, wldn't want it to be diff. but argh, a lil more sensitivity?? i donot like friends who see me as smtg else... it sucks, i see it as a violation. guys are too easy to get to, most of the time when u're not even trying to, then they try to be funny, KNS lah... cb heads, never think with their hearts, alws with their fucking dicks. a relationship can nv start when friendship is alr in place. it'll just ruin everything, then how does it start then?? i wldn't know.. damnit..
bah, lucky i still have vyasa they all, sim gang and yuey gang to count on, noit to try to be funny.. yes, i might be a girl, but i'm your friend most importantly.. it doesn't matter the sexes when friendship is involved, cos when u start think of a friend as a girl, shit happens.
i'm so freaking upset, i cldn't even proply enjoy myself just now at zouk, argh, not even one single bit!!! kns, i'm freaking pissed.. i love my hse, my trance, maybe techno too, haha, they're all the same.. chao cb... I WANT PAUL!!! knnn.... i bet he misses me now, i only had like a single min of dancing at MY speakers podium, cb, cos some fucking drunk girl took my cb space. the two angmohs were hot though. hiakz...
